Hit the jackpot

One of these days I'm going to have an amazing, positive and uplifting post. I keep counting down to that day. Unfortunately, I don't know when that will be. I put off posting updates for a little bit in hopes to have good news.

Its been an adventurous last couple weeks. On Tuesday, May 21st I attended my speech appointment and then went home and decided to quilt in my craft room. While sewing I became really exhausted mentally and physically. I couldn't move my arms and hands very well. I decided to stop and try taking a nap. I slept for about 3 hours and then my alarm went off to remind me to pick up Zoe from school. I rested some more. My chest, especially my right side, was hurting me and I was really uncomfortable. I was also dealing with really bad vertigo. I had a really bad migraine come on and it was hurting so bad that I started crying. Levi told me to pack a bag and that he was taking me to the ER. I cried even more saying, "I'm okay. I don't need to go."

I am so thankful for friends and family who willingly answer our phone calls and come over to our house in the middle the night to sit with Zoe while she sleeps.

We tend to go to the ER in the middle of the night, so luckily Levi can sleep just about anywhere. I'm sure it is not quality sleep, but he'll take what he can get.

After a few hours I was loaded into the ambulance and transported to the main UofU hospital.

I'm so tired of this view. I remember a long time ago I thought it would be cool to ride in an ambulance, not for anything serious. Be careful what your wish for. I have lost count of the number of times I've ridden in an ambulance this last year. I hope to never need to ride in one again.

They kept me overnight and after many tests the doctors determines that my shoulder or rotator cuff is the cause of my pain and that I needed to schedule a shoulder MRI.

By Friday night I was back in the ER because we could not get my migraine under control and they were worried I was having another stroke. Thankfully, the results showed no sign of stroke. I was given pain meds and sent home. Over the next few days my migraine would come and go. We now have it under control without pain meds.

I have gained some strength back and I'm able to mostly care for myself. I tire easily and need to rest often. I never realized how badly seizures wear on the body. I kept telling myself that Zoe only had two weeks full of appointments and school left and then I could rest. I thought I could just push through like I always have. That is no longer an option for me. Instead, Levi canceled all my appointments and put me on bed rest. He made all my meals and brought them in my room on a tray.

Because of all the stress my body has gone through I've really been struggling to get and keep food down. I have lost 10 pounds in a short amount of time. The doctors said if I can't keep my weight up they want to put me back on a feeding tube. I refuse to go back on a feeding tube. I'm still nauseated and dry heave a few times a day, but I'm eating more and doing better at keeping food down. Go me!

While I laid in bed and slept for several days, Levi, being the superman that he his, entertained Zoe. Levi is the best dad to Zoe. He gets down on the floor and plays with her. I love sitting in the room next to them and listen in on their conversations.

Levi is the most dedicated husband and dad I know. I have never seen a man work so hard to care for his family. He never complains. He is always encouraging me to keep going when things get too hard. I hit the jackpot with him. I am so blessed and thankful for Levi. I love him more than words can describe. I don't know what I would do without him.